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Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
8:00 am - Yay for me!!
So on Saturday I had a phone interview with our District Manager for a Sales Leadership position!!! Well Sunday Megan (my manager) called to inform me that I was hired!!!! Yay!!! I am so excited...not only is this my very first promotion ever, but its at a job that I really really love!! I have begun to realize that I was never really that happy at my other jobs...the only thing I liked about them was the people...so I guess for now retail is where I need to be cause its where I'm happy at.
So great things about being Sales Lead:
1. Basically I run the store during certain shifts
2. I get to help train new associates (I feel so smart)
3. I get my own mailbox at work!!! (my name label looks so cute~hehehe)
4. I get a pay raise (3 whole dollars more!!! which basically means that if Josh and I play our cards right for the next few months we'll be able to get our own place sooner than we thought!)
5. I get to help lead on the of the best teams Victoria's Secret has! The girls at our store are so awesome.

So I'm finally getting happier about being back in Tidewater. For awhile there I was really feeling stuck in a rut, but now things are finally starting to look up. (minus the fact that Seth and I both have a really bad cold that we can't shake...thanks to daycare!) I've met a lot of new girls at Vicky's...like Adrian...she is just as insane as I am. She just graduated from JMU...so she knows about going away to college then come back home...She is friggin hilarious too...for instance...last night we had to work the 9pm-2am shift to scan inventory, need less to say, we were hella tired on our way out...all night she had discussed how she was thinking of going from her blonde state to a really light brown state (a change that would look good on her), well after screwing up at doing about 20 different blonde things, she has decided that maybe brown just wouldn't be her cause then people would think she was just nuts instead of her being blonde. And then there's Melissa...she's my chicken little heheh...She has a big heart like I do...She cares alot about people...makes the same mistakes like I did with boys and relationships and still in the end becomes best friends with them after they break up...its insane...
However, even though I'm making new friends, I really miss my old ones, especially Sarah...my Smo...ahhh Smo...no one can replace her...
well I'll have to cut this short unexpectedly cause Seth has decided he hates his swing now...hmmm
Ok well....TA!

current mood: exhausted

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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
8:35 pm - Long Time No Write
Well its definitely been awhile, but I finally have time to update.

I did have Seth on June 14. I had to be induced, which kinda sucked, but on the up swing they gave me a sleeping pill the night before, and since they kick my butt, I slept all through labor. He was a healthy 9 pounds 1 ounce and 21 inches long. Very healthy and alert.

Now three months later...Life has become a little crazy, but so much fun. Josh and I are doing really well. We are madly in love with each other and our son.

I am currently working at Victoria's Secret. Soon (keeping fingers crossed) I'll be promoted at work, which I'm very excited about. I love working there...they are really sweet people. I'm finally making some new friends down here. Its hard to come back to a place where you wanted to be detached from your past...and when you do come back there isn't really anyone here. I really like the friends that I'm making, but that doesn't replace my sisters. I really miss my girls in Richmond (ladies I'm working on a trip up there). Its been hard to let go of the past and move on.

But I made my decisions and I'm happy with them...I miss my girls, but thats about all I miss from Richmond. I love my son and my family...and its getting easier now that I'm meeting more people and learning at work and stuff.

Well thats an update for now...catcha later!

current mood: happy

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Sunday, May 15th, 2005
10:34 pm - Close of a chapter....start a new one...
So I officially have been moved out of Richmond for five days. I moved out last Tuesday. Let me just say that it was very hard to do. I've been living up there on my own for the last four years and now I had to say goodbye. Its been an extremely emotional thing for me to do, which a lot of people didn't know it was. It took me multiple trips to get all my stuff home, and although it was slighty because there was a lot of stuff, but mainly because I was procrastinating. I didn't want to let go of that part of me. I will be returning to Richmond twice a week for classes, but thats it, I'll be in a class room all day long. The reason for me leaving is a good one and I wouldn't change that decision ever, but it was still very hard, especially since the entire apartment was completely empty of people when I left.
To keep me busy though, I've been working at Vicky's a lot. They changed my work to processing stuff, which is really cool, cause i'm not on my feet as much, plus I get to see all the new stuff first before anyone else which is awesome. I love my new job and the people I work with. Everyone is fabulous and I'm making some new friends. Ginny my co-manager just told me how good a worker I am which made me feel really good about myself, since recently I haven't been feeling too happy. I've just been way emotional and haven't been sleeping too well because I can never get comfy anymore. Its only a few more weeks to my due date and I'm way excited. Most people think he is coming on Memorial Day, but my mom and I say at least the 8th if not later.
I went out with my mom and Josh all day today. Mom and I went and picked out pretty flowers for pops yard and planted them while Josh tagged along and went swimming. We had a great time together. So between Ginny's comment yesterday and todays outing, I feel a lot better. I'm exhausted, but I feel good.
I have to work tomorrow doing more processing and then Tuesday I have another day off. Basically thats all that I'm doing, just working and doing the whole pregnancy/nesting thing getting ready for baby. Tonight I get to go to sleep in a good mood, hopefully I'll find a comfy position to sleep and get some good rest tonight.

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Monday, April 11th, 2005
9:38 am - updated finally
OK...if you have me at myspace, then this blog is the same as that one...so don't worry about reading it over...nothing has changed from it.

So yea, after complaining for a month about being sick, I finally break down and go to the doctor, to have them send me immediately to the ER because well...they just aren't equipt to work with pregnant women and they were worried about the baby. My oxygen levels were way down and my blood pressure wasn't all that great either. Well I refused to go to MCV again....been there, done that, never EVER again. So after talking with my mom about the best way to handle the situation...she says to go back to Norfolk (I had just arrived in Richmond not an hour before) to go the hospital where my doctors were, so that if something were wrong, they could be right there. So I pick my mom up from work so she can go to the ER with me. We arrive there around 12:30 and sit there until like 5 something....all the while, its getting harder for me to breathe, I can't stop coughing and at one point I feel very fainty.
I finally get in to see the doctor ( they put me in one of those sexy hospital gowns...oh yeah)...and the doctor wants me to have an x-ray done of my chest...so as I'm walking with the radiology tech she looks to me and says...and I kid you not..."Is there any chance that you are pregnant?" I said "Nope, I ate a beach ball....here's your sign" just kidding, I didn't say that to her, but I surely did want to....I told her that I was 7 months and then she realizes that my tummy is nice and round.
Well diagnosis??? Bronchitus borderline pneumonia. They put me on three different medications and told me to go home and rest. Well so far I have finished all of my medication and I am still coughing like crazy, and my lungs are still rattling, but mom and doc say that that is normal when getting over something like this. Let me just say that I'm tired of it. I'm over it. I want to be able to laugh and talk and just breathe without coughing so much.
I can't even roll over in my sleep without coughing.
Other than that....lets see....oh I got my job with Victoria's Secret...yay! I absolutely love my job and the people I work for. Some how I won them over even while being sick and dealing with everything from last week. Its fantabulous...and if I didn't have to have the money I would quit at VCU, just cause I'm so tired of working there. I dread waking up and going to that job. It takes so much of me to go there. I have realized that although I'm excellent at computer/office jobs, I am not meant to sit behind a computer all day...I'm a people person, meant to be around people.
Me and Josh are doing really well. Just getting really excited about Seth coming and all. He's been taking really good care of me, I wouldn't have made it through these past few weeks of being sick without him.
So besides the whole lung problems, I'm happy and content

current mood: tired

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Monday, March 28th, 2005
10:26 am - Cute little bunny
Ok, so Josh started singing this yesterday, and then proceeded to show me the video. I then sent it to Tara & Sarah, and this morning, I am finding it in all of these people's profiles. So I think everyone who reads my journal shall look at the cute little bunny as well. Its funny and cute...Happy Belated Easter!


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Thursday, March 24th, 2005
3:35 pm - Quote from Jenn
Jenn had this as her away message just a minute ago after talking with her about me becoming a mommie:
"sara's letting me keep..i mean.. babysit her baby. I'm at work.. love y'all"

I so love her!

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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
10:41 am - A Real Update
Wow, so everyone updated basically over spring break. Well I haven't done very much of it because I've been sick or too tired.
Things are going ok. Little struggle with one of my classes so I decided to withdrawal. I needed to. I tried and tried to do the full schedule of classes with working and thats a little too much with stuff that I've been trying to lately with preparing everything for June. I've been doing a good balancing act, but I don't want to stretch too thin. I can't say that I did not try, because I did, but between me being sick and trying to keep up with harder classes, I had to let it go.
Work is ok. Its always going to be stressful because of my boss, but hey, I deal. I put in a bunch of apps around malls and stuff while I was at home, so I'm hoping to get a job somewhere. I was excited to get an interview with Gymboree (children's clothing place), and Josh was excited about the interview with Victoria's Secret (hmmm wonder why...:-P) Hopefully I'll get more interviews to places.
Baby stuff is coming along. Momma and Mrs. Ensley have both started my two baby showers down in Norfolk. Momma is coming up with some unique games to play. I'm so excited I can't wait. Josh and I finally finished our baby registry so thats cool. We also started setting up interviews with pediatricians so we can find the right doc for our little baby. Its so frustrating sometimes to find doctors cause they are so picky about stuff, but hey its worth the work so that I get the right one.
Me & Josh are fantabulous. He is putting up with my emotional swings, and I love him for it. We've been trying to get out and do stuff on nice days so we aren't sitting around the house all the time. We even got out the other day and tossed a football (hope my son doesn't have my catching abilities) and took a walk around his neighborhood. One day we just went driving around p-town and chesapeake. It was very relaxing. I'm glad that spring and summer are coming. I feel much better when I'm out in the sun. Its really nice.
Hmmm what else??? I can't think of anything else....so I guess I'll end this, but yeah...life is good...lots of work but good.

current mood: okay

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10:25 am - stolen from Smobear
1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet + Mother's maiden name):
Molly Early. hahaha that just sounds funny
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food + Grandfather's first name):
Cheetos Maurice. Ok, thats even more ridiculous

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant):
Before Applebee's

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Vacation Spot):
Nutmeg Massanutten

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied):
Bigred Norfolk

6. FLY GIRL ALIAS: (aka J.Lo) - (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name):
S. Lo

7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen):
Cookie Juice

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School):
Tiger Maury.

9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink):
Pecan Swirl Tequila Sunrise
10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived):
Elizabeth Vimy Ridge Avenue
11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician):
SweetTarts Brooks

12. GREASE ALIAS: (Favorite Swear Word + Last Word of Favorite Movie):
Fuck Dancing, or Fuck Poppins...its a toss up

current mood: okay

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Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
12:36 pm
Ok....being sick and pregnant is not fun! I can handle morning sickness...I can't handle not being able to breath...this is so not cool...on top of that i keep getting a fever and yet i'm sitting at work because i need the money...I hate not have sick time.

current mood: sick

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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
8:37 am
Last night I was reading about a friend of mine whose dad will probably have to go through chemo and it shocked me back to the past. My grandmother died of cancer. She underwent chemo for a little bit, but we had detected the cancer too late and chemo and radiation weren't helping. Going every afternoon to see my grandmother as she slowly withered away was the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. It was so sad to see her as cancer raided her body. But when she passed, it was more of a blessing than anything else. She's pain free now. She can breathe easier. She can smile at her family when we do something funny. She's back to her old self, even though she isn't physically with us. I know that she is happy now. My grandmother was the rock of our family. She held us all together, she was our glue. I miss her. I'm always going to miss her, but its ok because I know she's around...somewhere.
The other thing abut her story is that its about her dad. She feels the way I want to feel toward my dad. He is everything to her. My dad just isn't. Hell my dad never calls me, I have to be the one to call him. Even now, no one knows where he is, somewhere in Georgia we think. I think since he left when I was about 2, I can probably count on both my hands how many times I've seen him in my life. I know somewhere in his heart he cares about me, and I guess that's what keeps me hanging is that I'm somewhere in his heart. Its hard sometimes to hang on. I want to not care anymore, but thats just not me. Sometimes I think that the next time I'll see him I'm just going to beat the crap out him, but then I know that I won't...I'll probably end up running to him crying and hugging him.
I know that other people have it worse that I do when it comes to dads. I actually think my situation is much better than theirs, because I'm not hurting so much everyday. When I think about him, I don't cry anymore. I never wait around anymore for it. I just live my life and if he wants to join then thats fine. I guess the only thing I can do is hope that those people who have dads around, cherish it, cherish both your parents. It sounds so weird to say, but its true. Even if life isn't the best. Just cherish it.

current mood: thoughtful

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Monday, February 28th, 2005
8:11 am - Where is Josh?
So people keep asking me where is josh, because I haven't mentioned him much in my journal. Well worry not my friends, he is still around. He and I will be celebrating one year this Saturday which we are both excited about. Wow...one year. Surprisingly I can't believe its only been a year. I feel like we've been dating longer. I guess it seems that way because we have gone through so much this past year. I think my one year curse has been lifted, (fingers still crossed), but things are so good between us right now that I don't think anything will screw it up, not even me. You see I've had this curse of the one year since I have started dating. I have either been broken up with or I broke up with someone right before a one year anniversary. It just never has made it to one year. But this time it will! It will because we are madly in love with each other and don't want to let go of each other because we are both really happy. He is a good guy with a good heart and I'm so lucky to have him all to myself!

This weekend was kinda relaxing/kinda busy. Meaning I did a lot of stuff, but not strenous stuff. Josh and I rearranged what is going to be the baby room and we set up the crib. Now we just need the mattress and bedding for it. I went through all the clothes that my cousin gave me and got things a little organized. I drove around doing a lot of errands with my mom each afternoon this weekend. I got books donated to the library (really old books, books that I wonder what I was reading them for, and also got a lot of clothes ready to be donated. Basically cleaning out old junk so mom can get my room straight so she can fit a crib in there for when the baby is at her house visiting.

Everyone has been so grateful for giving us stuff. I was beginning to stress out and figure out what was the most important stuff to get at this point before the baby is born so that we have what we need. Granted I'm still stressin' a little, but not as much. I feel better now that we have gotten organized with some of the stuff. Plus its cool to see things slowly get into place. Josh has now said that he is done with the room, basically me & his mom are gonna go crazy decorating some stuff and he'll just have to deal with frills! HEHEH! just kidding. I'm not planning much, mainly just organizational stuff for my stuff when it comes in and the baby's stuff so its not all over the place.

Another thing that has been on my mind though is how much I miss Phi Sig. I get to see most of the ladies throughout the week but only for short periods of time. I miss just hangin' having fun, but with the way things are I can't see them as often as I would like. I miss all the girls and just being goofy and having fun with them. Hmmm...hopefully I'll be able to just hang out one day with them...yea...that'll be nice.

Well thats all I can think of...besides I need to get ready for work!

current mood: awake

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Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
9:51 am - Pregnancy is boot camp
I have realized why women are pregnant for 9 months. OK, so the baby has to develope and all, but its not just that. It becomes practice to become a mom. Here's why:
Your tummy gets bigger, ok so everything gets moved and pushed, things become smaller such as your stomach (so you eat less, but more times a day) and your blatter...you have to pee every 5 minutes. Here's where boot camp comes into play. You go to sleep very uncomfy because you can sleep on your tummy comfortably, actually you can't sleep comfy no matter what you do cause all the weight shifts every direction. You also must wake up 2-3 times a night to pee even though you went right before you went to bed. So this gives you practice with not getting any sleep and have to get up to feed the baby. When the baby begins to move, he basically tells you when he's hungry or not, which is like every two hours. The longer you don't eat, the more he kicks, or if you wait to long to eat you get the hiccups, and thats severely annoying to me. So you have to fix something you want to eat every two hours. The kid will be eating every two-four hours. Your body also begins to ache. Feet & ankles get swollen, which begin to hurt, but you'll be on your feet for the next few years following your kid around. Your back hurts from all the weight up front, but hey you'll be carrying a kid in your arms for the next few months. You crave really strange things which means you must find these strange foods so that you can satisfy your cravings, kids are picky eaters-you have to find things they want to eat. You also have a doc appt every month...yea, how many times to kids go to docs office? You learn to be patient in these little offices, now the only difference is you'll have a kid on the table instead of you.
This is only the beginning of my theory. If you think about it, every obstacle you go through while pregnant prepares you for having the kid. Now I know you are not fully prepared, but nothing can fully prepare you for kids. But hey this is only a 9 month boot camp for 18 years of having a kid running the earth. What do you expect?

current mood: excited

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Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
1:28 pm
I got new mom-to-be pictures~


current mood: happy

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Monday, February 14th, 2005
When I was younger, mom always told me that Valentine's Day was a day to celebrate all of the people you love. Its not just for you and your boyfriend/girlfriend. Its for you and all those in your life that you love. Today is the day you tell those people how much they mean to you. I think V-day is the best day of the year!

Some of my favorite love songs (no specific order):

1. I'll Be-Edwin McCain
2. How Do I Love You-Garth Brooks
3. Let's Make Love-Faith Hill & Tim McGraw
4. You're the Only One-Maria Mena
5. The Reason-Hoobastank
6. Pretty Baby-Vanessa Carlton
7. The Answer-Sara Mclachlin
8. Valentine-Martina McBride
9. Unchained Melody-The Righteous Brothers
10. Faithfully-Journey
11. Thank You For Loving Me-Bon Jovi
12. Always Be My Baby-Mariah Carey
13. Dreams-Cranberries
14. Fly Me to The Moon-Frank Sinatra
15. Shake Your Love-Debbie Gibson
16. When You Say You Love Me-Josh Groban
17. I'll Be There For You-Rembrants
18. I Knew I Loved You-Savage Garden
19. Keep On Loving You-Reo Speedwagon
20. Runaway-The Corrs
21. Forever and Always-Shania Twain
22. Dreaming of You-Selena
23. I Believe In A Thing Called Love-Darkness
24. All My Life-KC & JoJo
25. Can You Feel The Love Tonight-Elton John

Some Love Quotes:
What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
~ by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~
The greatest thing you'll ever learn
Is to love and be loved in return.
~ From "Unforgettable with Love" by Natalie Cole
....A simple I love you means more than money....
~ by Frank Sinatra ~
I love thee, I love but thee
With a love that shall not die
Till the sun grows cold
And the stars grow old.
~ by Willam Shakespeare ~
Seduce my mind and you can have my body,
Find my soul and I'm yours forever.
~ by Anonymous ~

current mood: loved

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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
9:12 pm
Two funny links you should check out:




current mood: giggly

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Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
1:25 pm

You Are Boyish Sexy

You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys
Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football...
Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox.
You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

What Kind of Sexy Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

couldn't be flirty, fun, or confident...had to by boyish....yea I fell real sexy now!

current mood: amused

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12:55 pm - sci-fi & pregnancy
Ok, so you know those sci-fi films were there is a guy or a girl and he/she is laying on their back and their stomach does this bubbly looking thing. No ok, so everyone has seen the Gremlins right? Well if you haven't you should. OK, so you know when the gremlins get wet, their backs do a bubbly thing and then these little balls fly out and its more evil gremlins. OK well imagine that feeling in your stomach...these weird bubbly feeling and then it feels like something is going to pop out of your stomach at anytime...well thats what its like late at night when you are relaxed and pregnant and your baby kicks you. For the last few nights I felt like this little ball of something was going to come flying out of my stomach because Seth was kicking me so hard. Its cool to feel him move, but not when you are sleeping.
PS> sorry for the graphic pictures. It actually is a pretty cool feeling, just not late at night.

Other than that, things are really good. Classes are pretty interesting and I think I'm actually going to do well this semester. I'm feeling pretty good about everything.

current mood: indescribable

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Monday, January 31st, 2005
2:37 pm - Drivin' home
I used to think that driving back and forth to Richmond by myself was boring. I hated doing, but now I actually enjoy it. Drving from Richmond to Norfolk, I have an hour and a half to forget about work and school and focus on going home. I begin to relax and start to have fun. Going from Norfolk to Richmond, I begin to focus on the coming week. I prepare my mind for school and work. But not only do I think of these things, I also think about things with me. I used to not pay so much attention to myself, but with these car trips twice a week, I have begun to see how important it is to just think and have your my work its way through different situations. And if I don't feel like thinking I just blare music and sign to the top of my lungs (even though I can't sing! :) ) I get very happy driving and feel so free on the interstate....well as long as there is no traffic ;-) I have come to realize that I love my little bit of personal time to reflect on everything and not worry about feeling awkward in a car full of people...I hate quiet when other people are around.

So here are some lyrics from my ride back to Old Richmond VA:

"Life is not tried it is merely survived when you're standing outside the fire!"~Garth Brooks
"You had your chance you blew it Out of sight, out of mind"~Kelly Clarkson
"We like our beer flat as can be. We like our dogs with mustard and relish."~Alabama
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me. My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating"~Green Day
"Like two sparrows in a hurricane Trying to find their way With a head full of dreams And faith that can move anything"~Tanya Tucker
"I don’t understand anything anymore In this world that I’m tired of"~Train

There were a lot more songs....I just don't want to put lyrics from all of them :-p

current mood: crazy

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Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
11:14 am
So today I get to go home. I've done all of my school work, so I have nothing to do this weekend except order my books so that I can begin reading stuff. I'm trying really hard to stay on top of things. So far I've done a pretty good job. I've also been really careful in taking good care of myself. I've been eating a lot of food lately, but its been food that is good for me. I do eat cereal but I have a banana with it and drink milk too. I've been trying different fruits and veggies out (even eating ones that I really don't like just for Seth (thats the baby's name)). I've been getting decent sleep, and I have been walking everywhere even when I don't want to. I also have been taking the stairs whenever possible instead of the elevators and such (except here at the apartment...cause they can be killer). I'm feeling pretty good.

I've started doing a lot more reading in my books to research more about brain development in the womb. Its actually very interesting. At this point he can hear my voice and is actually getting to the point of recognizing it. I also read that reading to him not only increases his brain activity by the words said, but it also helps him to learn recognition of language and people. It also said that having him listen to music will help stimulate his creativity later on in life. Music also becomes a soothing noise for him, so when its time for him to fall asleep in a crib I can play the same music and it will help him to fall asleep.

I'm trying to do my best for myself, and so far I'm doing a good job. I have three days out of the week where I work really hard, and then I have the rest of the week to relax and not stress about anything. I'm feeling like I'm accomplishing good things. I'm pushing myself to do good, without stressing. Its such a good feeling.

current mood: contemplative

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Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
11:42 pm - Crazy Bears
As you can tell I've redone my livejournal...I think it looks a little better...still trying to find a better pic to put over to the left...but as I was changing it I decided to change my mood icons to teddy bears since they are my favorite. I have decided that I love the bear below the best because he looks so insane. Although I am feeling sleepy currently, I decided to put up the hyper ones so all could see my crazy teddy bear.

The End

current mood: hyper

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